Shyvonne, an Amazing Unique Talented friend of mine, is celebrating her Birthday this weekend, and she asked me to do the Invite/Flyer for her Birthday Brunch. She is such a cutesy bow loving girl just like I so, I had such fun doing it! Peep My new logo.
**Disclaimer** Invite only...if you did not receive this Invite via Shyvonne's e-mail address, you know the flow, how it goes, don't need to say much more...it is a public venue however...pick and chose your battles wisely. Oh and I like to ramble. (wink)
"And now you want to get me back, and you gone show me, so you walk around like you don't know me, you got a new friend, well I got homies, but in the end its still so lonely"
This Video is graphically pleasing! As a graphic designer, with a passion for pop art, this Video satisfies my eyes. Not to mention the lyrics, this is the part of the relationship when its wrong, he's wrong, and he realizes it, but the woman is gone. That happens to be the point of no return, and that's when he wants you back, and how dare you leave him, no matter if he did you wrong? So in return the woman is seemingly heartless, well this song is for me. Yeah to Ye'....
I never knew pursuing my dreams of Happiness, and having my own clothing line could be so hard. These past few months have been a total blur of sadness, I can't remember each day, all I can seem to remember are just bad moments, of let down, dissatisfaction, and starvation. I have found myself, shutting out the world at times, drowning my pain out by listening to the same sad songs. I try and still smile because everyone doesn't need to know I'm hurting deep down inside. It seems like I am living Murphy's Law "if something can go wrong, it will". I am slowly getting rid of people who I feel may be destructing to my life and goals, then there are the people who I feel are pretending to be there, because they need me at times, and because I'm such a sucker for helping I am always there. I feel myself needing certain people in my life, and lets be honest, what is life with out friends? No life at all right? Well at the end of the day, I only have myself, and that sometimes is all I need, but it happens to be lonely. I have so much emotion, so many issues, and I feel like there is no one there to listen to me, not lend me advice but just listen to me. What I put into this universe comes back to me, with that being said, I am my own worst enemy right now. I think being on my own, and having to struggle is going to make me stronger, but at this point I feel low, and weak. I am not this type of person, to be so down, but it shows, and everyone wants to know, so I am revealing my true feelings and emotions. "I wish I didn't care, because if I didn't a lot of people, their actions, would not affect me". It is so cold out side, and I am not motivated to do much but I am pushing through, because I am better than wasted talent. As stressed out as I am, there is a reason to smile, because "this too shall pass", I will get over this nightmare, I will live the happy part soon again. I am scared of what will happen if I stop trying, stop caring and let myself get out of control. Losing a job twice in a span of three months, has got me feeling like I am at the bottom. Having to chose to eat one day, or have pocket money is a constant battle I go through on a daily basis. Caring for someone who seems to be drifting away by the days, is painful too. If I could go someplace warm, someplace that is carefree, where everyone smiles, some place tropical, where I can be worry free, I'd love to go. It does not have to be real, or physical, I just need to feel that way.
My Halloween night was soo weird. I ended up at a House Party in Manhattan, on Christopher street. If you're familiar with that area, you know off jump the costumes were going to be insane as well as the people. I got drunk in about 15mins, off Moet! I had so many cups. We took some awesome pictures, that night, but during the party someone stole Zena's camera, so I don't have many pictures from that night :(. I can't really disclose much of what happened that night, yes that intense! My roommate Zena was throwing up in the bathroom for over two hours, never seen a human lose so much liquid that wasn't giving birth or being shot! I was so drunk I could barely see, and I had my good ole homie Calledner to come get me and my roommate Zena from the party and drive us home safely. I thank him for that!
So, aside from the mess on Saturday evening, I had a fun weekend. Lost of BBMin' with my new pal :P. I had a chance to eat at some great places. Cafeteria, my all time favorite for MAC & Cheese....its fucking BOMB, me and my roomie Zena shared the Mac ATTACK which is a tasting of three different M&C's! An orginal mac, one with bacon and the other is made with truffle oil. We also had their spinach and artichoke dip, followed by Meat loaf cooked and seasoned to perfection, and topped our night off with Red Velvet cake, it was good, but not as good as Cake Man Raven. I also went to a new spot in Brooklyn Called Foot prints which is home to the "Rasta Pasta" and many good drinks. The food was a party in my mouth, I just got done eating the left overs, and it was soooooo tasty. I had the rasta pasta with shrimp and grilled chicken, and every bite was soo good, the sauce was cheesy, sweet yet tangy. I had a Rum Punch that TKO'd my ass, and also a Banana Martini. They have drinks of all sorts, called crazy things like cocaine shooter, fuzzy dick so on and so forth...The atmosphere was grown and sexy, the vibe was so right in that place. I can't wait to go back. Check out the pics.
So, I applied for this Graphic Design position at M.O.B. Lanie of Hellz Bellz shot me over an e-mail telling me they were hiring. Boy was I excited!! The interview went amazingly well, I got to meet with the other graphic artist as well as Leah, the owner. I was given a project to do, they gave me an image of this Chanel bag, and I was to recreate the all over print and then do a logo T. I thought long and hard about what I was going to do, and you can see the image above. Sadly I didn't get the job, and I am still bitter about it! -_- That job could have really taken my life to the right plateau! Being that I love street wear, being that fashion and graphics is my passion and I myself am a MOST OFFICIAL BITCH! Everything happens for a reason, and I am hoping Lanie will recruit me at Hellz Bellz, because that would be even better! I have a picture I took with Sara from the MOB X Nike Collabo party (see above). Party was dope, wish i'd be partying and working with M.O.B, but the show must go on, I must get over it...
Please comment and tell me what you think of my designs.
So I have been on hiatus for a while!! Shit is getting crazy in New York! Not all bad, but the bad things have consumed me to the point where I have just not been on-line like that. I am currently jobless, living off my savings, and trying to still smile. It is hard, but I will not give up on my dreams. This guy who will remain nameless, had been there for me for a long while and shit between him and I is on the rocks, and I really need him now, and he's being very Kanye West these days. I want more than anything to start my own clothing line and that seems to get pushed back more and more by the day. I am stuck in NY for Thanksgiving and Christmas, because I have lost my job and can't afford to fly home. It is forcing me to become more independent, which is not a bad thing, but more than that I am home sick and just want to be with my family. I just have not felt like bloggin, but I am back at it.